Thankful

Thanksgiving day.
Thankful... for many things.
I'm thankful for such a loving family that provides me with neverending adoration and care. I'm thankful for great friends that remember me and care for me even when I'm in a completely different city. I'm thankful for where I have gone in life, and the choices I'm finally making right now, right where I'm at.

I've made silly and dumb mistakes. But hey, I'm still young. I have much to learn. Half of me is more controlled while the other half goes with the flow.

I'm also thankful for Traver, my adorable boyfriend. I've sacrificed a little to be with him, I admit, but those little bits of sacrifices somehow mean nothing to me... Although I feel they should.

I've let go of a close friend for him. This close friend probably hates me... and I remember when he was one of the most important people in my life. What made me give up? What made me stop holding on to this friend?
Traver. He finally let me put down this guilt. I realized that I held onto my friend because of major guilt. In a way, I think this is good for both of us.

I've also let go of another close friend for Traver. It saddens me a little that I can tell he doesn't seem to want to have anything to do with me anymore. If he changes his mind and wants to stay my friend, I wouldn't mind. I'd love to stay his friend throughout anything. He's a great guy with a good head on his shoulders. But, like the friend I mentioned before, he's not the one I was waiting for, and I understand the pain I may have inflicted... I never meant for it to hurt anyone.

I truly believe Traver's the person I've been waiting for, and I hope they don't hold it against me.