I know, I know, updating a blog while I should be studying for two tests = bad bad bad procrastination, but hey, I can't help it; I have much to record. I wanna record everything that's happened so far after my sudden healing by my Sun... or, as I would like to jokingly call him, that Korean Fatass :P (not that he's fat; he works out constantly, so I just call him that to tease him of the vast amount of exercise he does).
He's my Sun because on the day I was most vulnerable and subject to doing things I never thought I would do, he saved me from all that I was becoming. I couldn't turn away from who I was turning into, yet after a few comfortable conversations and a grasp of my hand during the turn of a wrench, I noticed how the sun shone so bright against a once-cloudy sky.
Cat said that maybe "God sent him to me". What Christians tell me, I believe. I may not be anything in particular, but I do know how the heavens have been so good to send someone so perfect for me just in time to save me from torment of what seems like hell.
I never get tired of holding his face in my hands and gazing into those half exotic eyes. I never get bored of our ongoing conversations about random inappropriate things that somehow put me at ease.
His smile, the one that I jokingly labeled as the "Tom Cruise smile", not only brightens my day, but is something I look forward to seeing every time I'm with him.
I once told Brian that I'd love to have a guy sing Bruno Mars's song "Just the Way You Are" to me when the time is right. My Sun has already sung it to me without knowing, and whenever he "sings" it, the time is just right.
Never have I ever been so comfortable around a guy.
Please, Lord, let him stay in my life a little longer.
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