Funny how this blog started off as something so innocent, but ends up being where I pour all my feelings out when I'm most stressed or feel most inspired. I don't mind; I enjoy knowing that anyone out there can read my thoughts, yet they can't find it unless I give them permission or they somehow stumble upon this with a lucky chance.
Maybe someone out there's feeling the same way as me and doesn't feel so alone after reading this.
Or someone out there is wondering why I chose what I chose to do and wanted answers.
Or they're just nosey and wanna be a stalker.
I don't mind any of them. Because you're my audience and I love knowing that my life interests people.
BUT ANYWAY!
Back to what I've been wanting to write!
This has been on my mind for quite some time now... I don't think my last post did my thoughts any justice.
Some people probably hate me for the choice I made recently. If they don't hate me, they're probably really hurt by what I've done.
But you must understand, this person has helped me to finally let go of all guilt and negative emotions, and has brought me out into this world to live again.
I feel as if I've started all over.
I don't have leftover baggage.
I remember how guilty I felt when I disappointed you. How I never knew what I can do to make it go away. I know now, and that is to get myself out of your life like what I just did.
I'm a reminder of what could have been, what hurt, what left and tried to come back. You deserve a second chance at living too, one without me in it.
I never chose this to hurt you, to be a lying bitch, or any of that sort.
I was the same person you knew me as 6 years ago. What I said really was true.
I wasn't ready for any changes at that time. And once I was ready, you weren't the one. I can't let the past guide me because I now have different needs.
This doesn't make me a bad person. This just makes me a person who was given a second chance to live again.
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