Tomorrow marks my last day at my Co op. I remember during my first few weeks here, I wished so much to go home and see all my friends. Even a little over a month and a half ago, when people asked me would I consider moving to Ashdown, I would say that I couldn't leave my friends and wouldn't be able to do it...
But now, it's all coming to an end and... I'm not even excited to go back. I've grown to love this place. Sure, I may at times seem like the awkward shy one in the technical building. And I may sometimes get so shy that I may not want to go out when I'm invited. But the times that I did go out with all of them, I always had a great time. Just when I started to get attached to this place, it's already time to go. No wonder why people keep coming back. Working here was such an amazing experience. Everyone was just so helpful and willing to provide their knowledge. I learned so much and met so many amazing and influential people. My only hope is that one day, if I get to work with them all again... possibly... if I do get hired there... I'll be able to contribute more to the company than I have before.
There's this feeling you get when you enjoy being in the area you work in. You want to help them succeed, and to see your work make a difference to the company.
I feel like there is still so much I haven't done yet, and I have to drop everything and leave.
Why can't time stop itself for a little?
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I AM SUCH A LIGHTWEIGHT
Megan and her husband Scott invited a bunch of the young co-workers to their house for poker night last night. I decided to go, since I haven't gone out as much as I wanted to. Because it was such a big group, we split into two groups and the last 6 will group themselves together. I haven't played Texas Hold 'Em in years, so I looked like a complete newbie. Little did I know Lady Luck took a liking to me and I was the hot shit at my table, raising chips and winning multiple hands! Sadly my luck drifted from me near the last few rounds before the tables combined. I ended up being the 4th to last one out :( Not too bad, since we began with 11 people, but I had a taste of winning and was sad to not at least be in the last 3 :(
In between the combination of tables, I played a round of beer pong with Chris, Mike, and Patrick, with Chris being my partner. He filled his cups with beer and filled mine with strawberry daquiri -__- lolol. Needless to say, I had horrible aim and caused us to lose. I am officially the worst beer pong partner in the world.
After a game of Fxck the Dealer, Tiradej announced that he was leaving early and I decided to go with him, since I'm not only the worst beer pong player in the universe, but also a freaking lightweight. I knew my limit was reached so it was best that I left early xP. I was starting to even feel queasy in his car, and he theatened "Jen... if you throw up in my car, you owe me 50 dollars." LMAO XD
Today at work was the longest day everrrrrr.
But I'm finally on Thanksgiving weekend break! Happy Thanksgiving everyone :)
In between the combination of tables, I played a round of beer pong with Chris, Mike, and Patrick, with Chris being my partner. He filled his cups with beer and filled mine with strawberry daquiri -__- lolol. Needless to say, I had horrible aim and caused us to lose. I am officially the worst beer pong partner in the world.
After a game of Fxck the Dealer, Tiradej announced that he was leaving early and I decided to go with him, since I'm not only the worst beer pong player in the universe, but also a freaking lightweight. I knew my limit was reached so it was best that I left early xP. I was starting to even feel queasy in his car, and he theatened "Jen... if you throw up in my car, you owe me 50 dollars." LMAO XD
Today at work was the longest day everrrrrr.
But I'm finally on Thanksgiving weekend break! Happy Thanksgiving everyone :)
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Weekend with Traver: Marine Corps Ball and Bonding
Today is Tuesday already, but I would like to blog about what I've been up to since that last time I've posted leading up to this past weekend!
Nothing's new... I'm more than halfway done with my internship at Domtar, and aside from working a routine Monday through Friday, I have not done much that is different and probably will not until it's time for me to head back to school.
Last Friday, I took the day off and flew to Virginia to see Traver; firstly, because it's our one year anniversary, and secondly, because it's his Marines Corps Ball and it meant a lot to him for me to go.
I bought him a Glee season two DVD (it's our show), and I won a pink Domo for him too! It may not be anything he'd bring with him to the Barracks, but it's something for him to leave in his room at his house to remind him that I adore him ^_^
It was my first time flying by myself. While I've been flying a bajillion times (since I was around 1 and a half), I have never gone anywhere by myself before and was scared of not knowing where to go without my family guiding me. To my surprise, it was extremely easy and the people who worked at the airport were very helpful with any questions I had.
Unfortunately, Traver was doing his Marines duty and his family were all busy, so I had to get a taxi to go to his house, which was pretty expensive since it was right around the time that people get off work that I landed. His mom offered to pay for my cab, but I felt guilty I decided to pay for it myself (it was $100!). She wouldn't let me pay for it and I felt so bad! With Brian's suggestion, I tried to help out around the house as much as I can during my stay.
One of the best parts of visiting Traver in Virginia is getting to spend time with his little sister. He has three sisters and a brother, but since his youngest sister has the most free time, I usually spend the most time with her out of all his siblings. She is so cute! I find her so adorable! We did our nails, made facial masks, and she also put on makeup with me while I was getting ready for the ball.
I wore a black dress, as I was told that it's best to not outshine my date. To my dismay, I saw a girl in a short tube dress! All the girls were wearing floor length gowns that complimented their date/boyfriend/husband's uniforms, and here this girl is dressing like she's about to get down at a club! Tsk tsk.
Traver bought tickets to the bar, with two for beer and two for mixed drinks (intended for me). I'm not a big fan of the alcohol taste, so he had the lady at the bar mix something fruity enough that the alcoholic taste was at its minimum :)
By the time it was dinner, Traver and I were so hungry that we almost couldn't resist that piece of cake that was placed in front of us since the time we sat down at the table! Like the guy that was sitting next to us said, "the cake seemed to be teasing and laughing at us saying 'you can't touch me!'"
Afterwards, Traver and I danced to a few songs, and decided that it was time to call it a night. Overall, it was an interesting time and I learned a lot about military etiquette.
On Sunday, Traver and I woke up at around 9 in the morning to an extremely quiet house. His mom and his youngest sister was at church and his two sisters were at friends' houses. He decided to make breakfast for me (omelettes!) while I packed up and waited until everyone came back from sleepovers and church to say goodbye to them before I left. Traver took me to a historical area where there were a lot of little shops. My favorite was the used book shop. I really liked the small antique-like atmosphere of that area. There was music playing and the books were very well organized. The prices are also reasonably priced. Traver bought me a book by Amy Tan, which I keep in my purse for whenever I'm having a slow day, such as when my computer at work decides to take its sweet time starting up in the morning, during which I would read a paragraph or two.
We had lunch at a Mediterranean restaurant, and then got gelato for dessert!
I loved my time spent with him. He was sad at my leaving, but I kept myself and him from feeling sad by reminding him it's only a few weeks until I am back in North Carolina; then he can visit me more often!
Happy One Year, baby!
Nothing's new... I'm more than halfway done with my internship at Domtar, and aside from working a routine Monday through Friday, I have not done much that is different and probably will not until it's time for me to head back to school.
Last Friday, I took the day off and flew to Virginia to see Traver; firstly, because it's our one year anniversary, and secondly, because it's his Marines Corps Ball and it meant a lot to him for me to go.
I bought him a Glee season two DVD (it's our show), and I won a pink Domo for him too! It may not be anything he'd bring with him to the Barracks, but it's something for him to leave in his room at his house to remind him that I adore him ^_^
It was my first time flying by myself. While I've been flying a bajillion times (since I was around 1 and a half), I have never gone anywhere by myself before and was scared of not knowing where to go without my family guiding me. To my surprise, it was extremely easy and the people who worked at the airport were very helpful with any questions I had.
Unfortunately, Traver was doing his Marines duty and his family were all busy, so I had to get a taxi to go to his house, which was pretty expensive since it was right around the time that people get off work that I landed. His mom offered to pay for my cab, but I felt guilty I decided to pay for it myself (it was $100!). She wouldn't let me pay for it and I felt so bad! With Brian's suggestion, I tried to help out around the house as much as I can during my stay.
One of the best parts of visiting Traver in Virginia is getting to spend time with his little sister. He has three sisters and a brother, but since his youngest sister has the most free time, I usually spend the most time with her out of all his siblings. She is so cute! I find her so adorable! We did our nails, made facial masks, and she also put on makeup with me while I was getting ready for the ball.
I wore a black dress, as I was told that it's best to not outshine my date. To my dismay, I saw a girl in a short tube dress! All the girls were wearing floor length gowns that complimented their date/boyfriend/husband's uniforms, and here this girl is dressing like she's about to get down at a club! Tsk tsk.
Traver bought tickets to the bar, with two for beer and two for mixed drinks (intended for me). I'm not a big fan of the alcohol taste, so he had the lady at the bar mix something fruity enough that the alcoholic taste was at its minimum :)By the time it was dinner, Traver and I were so hungry that we almost couldn't resist that piece of cake that was placed in front of us since the time we sat down at the table! Like the guy that was sitting next to us said, "the cake seemed to be teasing and laughing at us saying 'you can't touch me!'"
Afterwards, Traver and I danced to a few songs, and decided that it was time to call it a night. Overall, it was an interesting time and I learned a lot about military etiquette.
On Sunday, Traver and I woke up at around 9 in the morning to an extremely quiet house. His mom and his youngest sister was at church and his two sisters were at friends' houses. He decided to make breakfast for me (omelettes!) while I packed up and waited until everyone came back from sleepovers and church to say goodbye to them before I left. Traver took me to a historical area where there were a lot of little shops. My favorite was the used book shop. I really liked the small antique-like atmosphere of that area. There was music playing and the books were very well organized. The prices are also reasonably priced. Traver bought me a book by Amy Tan, which I keep in my purse for whenever I'm having a slow day, such as when my computer at work decides to take its sweet time starting up in the morning, during which I would read a paragraph or two.
We had lunch at a Mediterranean restaurant, and then got gelato for dessert!
I loved my time spent with him. He was sad at my leaving, but I kept myself and him from feeling sad by reminding him it's only a few weeks until I am back in North Carolina; then he can visit me more often!
Happy One Year, baby!
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Arkansas = :)
So, I don't do much during weekends nowadays because there are NO GIRLS my age where I work, and a lot of the guys leave town to visit family. I usually just go shopping to rid myself of boredom.
Aside from that, people in Arkansas are REALLY nice. They always put a smile on my face! For instance, today, I went to Walmart to pick up an RF modulator for my old ass t.v, and a man who held the door for me noticed my hoodie says NC State. He asked if I'm from Raleigh and I said yes. He suddenly got really excited and explained he came from Raleigh too, and moved to Arkansas through the military. He then explains that he was actually from Fayetteville originally, and I myself got excited and exclaimed that I was originally from Fayetteville too. We talked about our high schools, and I told him I was here on internship. We parted ways with him telling me good luck in my career. This is just an example of how friendly and nice people here are. It's a pretty nice place to live in ^_^
Aside from that, people in Arkansas are REALLY nice. They always put a smile on my face! For instance, today, I went to Walmart to pick up an RF modulator for my old ass t.v, and a man who held the door for me noticed my hoodie says NC State. He asked if I'm from Raleigh and I said yes. He suddenly got really excited and explained he came from Raleigh too, and moved to Arkansas through the military. He then explains that he was actually from Fayetteville originally, and I myself got excited and exclaimed that I was originally from Fayetteville too. We talked about our high schools, and I told him I was here on internship. We parted ways with him telling me good luck in my career. This is just an example of how friendly and nice people here are. It's a pretty nice place to live in ^_^
Friday, September 9, 2011
My Days at Co-Op so Far
Today was my first day hanging out with people outside of work! I must admit it felt just like being in college. Everyone's so young and vibrant, it's like I never left college! I met some cool people, and even planned on going to Dallas with one of the ones that I've met!
So far, my co-op has been mostly computer work. I enjoy having great co-workers, but I do wish I can do more hands-on work, such as working more in the mill, maybe helping with paper tests and all.
I recently just got cable! You can imagine how excited I am!
I must apologize for this horribly written entry... still a little buzzed >.<
I never said I was Li Bai... haha
So far, my co-op has been mostly computer work. I enjoy having great co-workers, but I do wish I can do more hands-on work, such as working more in the mill, maybe helping with paper tests and all.
I recently just got cable! You can imagine how excited I am!
I must apologize for this horribly written entry... still a little buzzed >.<
I never said I was Li Bai... haha
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Easy Smokey Eyes
I went on an awesome shopping spree during my trip to New York! Unfortunately, I am now on a Co-Op, and left all my cool stuff at home, so I am currently unable to show what I bought!
However, here's an awesome and easy eye look you can do in seconds (excuse the messy hair)!
First, take some brown eyeshadow and use your fingers to blend it along your lid, focusing near the outer edges. Take some goldish, nudish eye shadow and use your fingers to dab that in the middle of your eyelid and near the tear ducts. Then, fill the area under the crease with black eyeshadow, finishing it with lightly lined eyes in black eyeliner. And ta-da! Smokey eyes in seconds!
It is up to you if you want to highlight the area under your eyebrows. For me, however, I feel that highlighting the brow bone is not always necessary for the look may come off as overdone.
Friday, August 12, 2011
Bullying
It has come to my realization that bullying is no longer what it used to be. I'm sure everyone has heard of Phoebe Prince's story and have watched " Cyberbully" on ABC Family. While my high school was not the best school in the county where I grew up in, I must admit that I had great friends and great teachers that cared about me to where bullying was not a big issue towards me. However, after reading Phoebe Prince's story, it has really opened up my eyes to how cruel young adults can be. A lot of bullying towards Phoebe took place due to jealousy. Even though some can say that jealousy is actually an odd form of compliment, it can be dangerous and deadly. I sometimes wonder if these young adults ever took the time to rethink their actions before they act upon it, and see how much pain they would be inflicting on others. No one wants to be treated that way, especially at a learning facility where students are expected to learn and make friends.
It angers me extremely when teachers, who are supposed to be taking place of students' parents while they are under their care, actually do not take action against what has been reported to them, and try to think up pitiful excuses to not take the blame for what occurs.
Teachers, you all have responsibilities to hold for each child you see in the hallways, and this should have been known once you decided on becoming an educator to young minds. Teaching is not the only job one holds as a teacher; instead, one becomes a mentor, a role model, and a parent wrapped up in one. If they are not ready to hold such a responsibility, then I would suggest they go for another degree rather than half-assing their jobs.
It angers me extremely when teachers, who are supposed to be taking place of students' parents while they are under their care, actually do not take action against what has been reported to them, and try to think up pitiful excuses to not take the blame for what occurs.
Teachers, you all have responsibilities to hold for each child you see in the hallways, and this should have been known once you decided on becoming an educator to young minds. Teaching is not the only job one holds as a teacher; instead, one becomes a mentor, a role model, and a parent wrapped up in one. If they are not ready to hold such a responsibility, then I would suggest they go for another degree rather than half-assing their jobs.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
2011 Miss Hong Kong Beauty Pageant
I know I'm a little late, since it's already a few days after the broadcast, but I finally finished watching the 2011 Miss Hong Kong Beauty Pageant! I really enjoyed the ending, which was especially touching. First, each contestant comes out with their mom to talk about how they made such a difference in each other's lives, which made many of the contestants cry. Next, each contestant presents a friendly gift for another contestant that they felt especially attached to during the course of the pageant, which made them cry even more. The last part, however, was what made me cry.
When they were announcing the first place winner, the announcement was not done by a person; it was actually announced by leading the winner's mom to see her daughter and embrace her. What really moved me was the fact that Rebecca Zhu's mother is the first person to tell her that she was the winner, and in my opinion, when it's an event that is really special in their lives, having someone so important to you give you such good news just makes winning that much more meaningful than someone you barely know announcing you're the winner.
When they were announcing the first place winner, the announcement was not done by a person; it was actually announced by leading the winner's mom to see her daughter and embrace her. What really moved me was the fact that Rebecca Zhu's mother is the first person to tell her that she was the winner, and in my opinion, when it's an event that is really special in their lives, having someone so important to you give you such good news just makes winning that much more meaningful than someone you barely know announcing you're the winner.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Family Week
My cousins Kenny and Patty came down from New Jersey to visit me for a week! I was extremely excited. They haven't come down to visit my family and me since I was around 10! I always went up to New York to see them and my grandparents. Aside from the fact that I dread in fear that I would not have time to study for my accounting test that was today (Friday), I was really happy to be spending time with them.
They arrived Sunday night (Monday earning morning at around 2AM). Immediately Patty and I bonded where we went up to my room, shut the door, and talked about girl stuff. I've always looked up to her as an older sister figure, so everything she does and says, I remember I would always try to copy her.
We went to the science museum downtown on Monday. It's been so long since I've been there. What really grossed me out was the bug section on the top floor ~_~ cockroaches, gigantic centipedes, and huge green caterpillars were a little too much for me!
Traver traveled downtown to meet them, and they seemed to like him, even though our conversation only lasted a little while before we had to go home for dinner.
Sandy and Emily's family came the next evening! With the exception of Andrew's family and Melissa, most of the cousins were there and it was so much fun! Emily has grown to be really intelligent for a 5 year old and Sandy finally can speak full sentences.
We also went to Lake Johnson to go kayaking and canoeing. It was the first time I ever went and I had a blast ^_^ I saw something floating in the water and it scared the living lights out of me because I thought it was a gator! But later on, we saw something really similar to it and it was actually a paper bag -__-
I wanted to go back so bad that I asked Traver if he can go with me again Tuesday! He agreed to go, but I doubt it'll be actually confirmed because he'll probably forget x_x
Afterwards, I took them to Bojangles for the first time! Even though Patty was extremely health conscious, she ate all of her portions and really liked the ice tea! I was glad they enjoyed it ^_^ During our time at Bojangles, the topic of our family came up, and I was surprised to know that every family has their crazy side and no family's perfect! My brother and I aren't alone! It just seems like Asian families are always the craziest :P
On their last day, we went to IHOP for our last meal together, and spent most of the time gossiping about people we knew. Before we knew it, it was time to say goodbye.
I miss them so much already! I hope to see them again soon!
They arrived Sunday night (Monday earning morning at around 2AM). Immediately Patty and I bonded where we went up to my room, shut the door, and talked about girl stuff. I've always looked up to her as an older sister figure, so everything she does and says, I remember I would always try to copy her.
We went to the science museum downtown on Monday. It's been so long since I've been there. What really grossed me out was the bug section on the top floor ~_~ cockroaches, gigantic centipedes, and huge green caterpillars were a little too much for me!
Traver traveled downtown to meet them, and they seemed to like him, even though our conversation only lasted a little while before we had to go home for dinner.
Sandy and Emily's family came the next evening! With the exception of Andrew's family and Melissa, most of the cousins were there and it was so much fun! Emily has grown to be really intelligent for a 5 year old and Sandy finally can speak full sentences.
We also went to Lake Johnson to go kayaking and canoeing. It was the first time I ever went and I had a blast ^_^ I saw something floating in the water and it scared the living lights out of me because I thought it was a gator! But later on, we saw something really similar to it and it was actually a paper bag -__-
I wanted to go back so bad that I asked Traver if he can go with me again Tuesday! He agreed to go, but I doubt it'll be actually confirmed because he'll probably forget x_x
Afterwards, I took them to Bojangles for the first time! Even though Patty was extremely health conscious, she ate all of her portions and really liked the ice tea! I was glad they enjoyed it ^_^ During our time at Bojangles, the topic of our family came up, and I was surprised to know that every family has their crazy side and no family's perfect! My brother and I aren't alone! It just seems like Asian families are always the craziest :P
On their last day, we went to IHOP for our last meal together, and spent most of the time gossiping about people we knew. Before we knew it, it was time to say goodbye.
I miss them so much already! I hope to see them again soon!
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Break from studying
OMFG I SOOO needed a break from studying for my M110 computer proficiency test. I've been studying for nearly 7 hours straight, and my head was experiencing that compressed feeling which I get whenever I feel stressed. Blogging's the PERFECT form of relaxation for me.
Hm... what to blog about today...?
I know! Fayettevilleee
the city I grew up in.
As I was growing up, I never really thought of Fayetteville as a bad place to live in. From what I was told by my friends who were less fortunate, I lived in a safer and cleaner neighborhood than they did where there was much less crime. I had barely any problems making friends and was the top of my class beginning in elementary school. Elementary school was a great place for me. Middle school sure was not. That was where I realized how corrupted half of the city was. The children were pretty bad kids that didn't care much about school. I still managed to make friends who are now like brothers and sisters to me (Megan, Nicole, Jenny, Tia, Jeremy, and a few others). We literally grew up around each other and experienced similar situations at Byrd.
It wasn't until I left Fayetteville did I realize how much I was missing out on. Fayetteville wasn't a great place to live in; in fact, it was ranked the 3rd worst city to raise a family due to its crime rate.
I had many things stolen from me in school. I also had many rude things said about me in school when I never disrespected anybody. This comes with being in school, but when you see your family members being made fun of by GROWN ADULTS, how does that make you feel? Yes, they were racial slurs. I learned to take it in and tolerate it. My father and brother knew how to make these people shut up and listen.
I regretted not obeying my dad when he told me I should have waited before finding boyfriends. I dated someone absolutely horrible for me in high school. He was a selfish person who didn't know the meaning of "no" or "too much". I never did anything wrong to him, yet nothing I ever did was enough for this self-absorbed jerk. One bad relationship came after another, to where my second boyfriend merely pretended to understand me as a person until I left for college. After hearing from my best friends about the things that he said to them after my breakup, I was shocked to have ever dated a guy that I thought would have never acted so disrespectful and ignorant. Whether it was merely that person's stupidity or the fact that I really was being targeted emotionally, it was clear to me that not many people are worth keeping in touch with when all they ever did was take advantage of you.
I'm really glad I left Fayetteville.
For those who are fortunate enough to make it to a different city, be it Charlotte, Chapel Hill, or Raleigh, or even out of state, I applaud you. Life can only get better for you from here.
Hm... what to blog about today...?
I know! Fayettevilleee
the city I grew up in.
As I was growing up, I never really thought of Fayetteville as a bad place to live in. From what I was told by my friends who were less fortunate, I lived in a safer and cleaner neighborhood than they did where there was much less crime. I had barely any problems making friends and was the top of my class beginning in elementary school. Elementary school was a great place for me. Middle school sure was not. That was where I realized how corrupted half of the city was. The children were pretty bad kids that didn't care much about school. I still managed to make friends who are now like brothers and sisters to me (Megan, Nicole, Jenny, Tia, Jeremy, and a few others). We literally grew up around each other and experienced similar situations at Byrd.
It wasn't until I left Fayetteville did I realize how much I was missing out on. Fayetteville wasn't a great place to live in; in fact, it was ranked the 3rd worst city to raise a family due to its crime rate.
I had many things stolen from me in school. I also had many rude things said about me in school when I never disrespected anybody. This comes with being in school, but when you see your family members being made fun of by GROWN ADULTS, how does that make you feel? Yes, they were racial slurs. I learned to take it in and tolerate it. My father and brother knew how to make these people shut up and listen.
I regretted not obeying my dad when he told me I should have waited before finding boyfriends. I dated someone absolutely horrible for me in high school. He was a selfish person who didn't know the meaning of "no" or "too much". I never did anything wrong to him, yet nothing I ever did was enough for this self-absorbed jerk. One bad relationship came after another, to where my second boyfriend merely pretended to understand me as a person until I left for college. After hearing from my best friends about the things that he said to them after my breakup, I was shocked to have ever dated a guy that I thought would have never acted so disrespectful and ignorant. Whether it was merely that person's stupidity or the fact that I really was being targeted emotionally, it was clear to me that not many people are worth keeping in touch with when all they ever did was take advantage of you.
I'm really glad I left Fayetteville.
For those who are fortunate enough to make it to a different city, be it Charlotte, Chapel Hill, or Raleigh, or even out of state, I applaud you. Life can only get better for you from here.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Before I leave
I seem to always be writing in this whenever I'm procrastinating.
Today's post is fully dedicated to the love of my life, Traver Mayfield. If it's too mushy for you, then stop reading it!
Haha.
So last night, our conversation was like this:
"Do you know why you like me?"
"Yeah, I'm already sure of why I like you."
"Do you ever wonder why I like you?"
"Yeah, I do."
I started listing all the things that make him more amazing than any guy I've dated, and started listing everything I like about him, but he just fell asleep while I was listing x_x
I keep almost crying whenever we say bye to each other after hanging out. I'm scared that he wouldn't want to be with me once we both leave for our jobs. I'm not free to be happy with whoever I want to be with, since my parents are so traditional, but I feel I'm happiest with him.
He's so carefree in how he talks to me. He never hides anything. If he's angry, he shows and tells why. He doesn't get crazy jealous because he knows others don't stand a chance. We all have bad habits and bad traits. While others hide them, he shows them because he has nothing to hide as a person. If he makes a mistake, he doesn't try to hide it. Whatever embarrassing thing he does just makes him more human and a lot of the times more adorable. His favorite pasttimes aren't even embarrassing; no silly online game that causes him to sit at a computer for hours to make him fat. He loves exercising and sports. He tells me whatever is on his mind, and he's driven in the things he does. I never feel suffocated either.
I don't ever want this to end.
Today's post is fully dedicated to the love of my life, Traver Mayfield. If it's too mushy for you, then stop reading it!
Haha.
So last night, our conversation was like this:
"Do you know why you like me?"
"Yeah, I'm already sure of why I like you."
"Do you ever wonder why I like you?"
"Yeah, I do."
I started listing all the things that make him more amazing than any guy I've dated, and started listing everything I like about him, but he just fell asleep while I was listing x_x
I keep almost crying whenever we say bye to each other after hanging out. I'm scared that he wouldn't want to be with me once we both leave for our jobs. I'm not free to be happy with whoever I want to be with, since my parents are so traditional, but I feel I'm happiest with him.
He's so carefree in how he talks to me. He never hides anything. If he's angry, he shows and tells why. He doesn't get crazy jealous because he knows others don't stand a chance. We all have bad habits and bad traits. While others hide them, he shows them because he has nothing to hide as a person. If he makes a mistake, he doesn't try to hide it. Whatever embarrassing thing he does just makes him more human and a lot of the times more adorable. His favorite pasttimes aren't even embarrassing; no silly online game that causes him to sit at a computer for hours to make him fat. He loves exercising and sports. He tells me whatever is on his mind, and he's driven in the things he does. I never feel suffocated either.
I don't ever want this to end.
Friday, June 10, 2011
My Sister's Wedding, Bin's House
I'm so behind on updating! I've been so busy with school and weekend events that I haven't had the time to update when I really really wanted to, because one weekend is very special, and the other one really spontaneous! Megan and Traccie's wedding and Bin's house!
May 28th was the celebration of my sister's wedding. It was a very special day where my best friend since sixth grade and a close friend of mine are joined together in marital union, and I could not be happier for them! I was honored that Megan wanted me to be a part of such a big day for her as a bridesmaid, and I wish her nothing but the best for her and Traccie's future!
My family left Friday on May 27th for Myrtle Beach to get a head start, also so they can also have a little break from the boring house life. Who knew that it was also Biker weekend, so we didn't get any peace at all!??
But Saturday was the big day! I almost had a scare because Nicole was almost late, and she sent me a text to fill in her place as maid of honor, which scared the shiz out of me!! I ran in the chapel panicking, but thank goodness Nicole made it! Jess, the other bridesmaid, was a little late, but it didn't matter because in the pictures we were all perfectly lined up!
After the wedding, Jess, Mitch, Kaleb, and I went to the beach for a little bit because we had some time to kill. We then went to an Italian restaurant for the reception. Yay for yummy free food! Traccie also got Megan to dance! She never danced much, so it was nice seeing her relax and enjoy herself!
I never knew the day would come! My sister all grown up and married! I used to think we would be young forever! But one of us is all grown up now! Sniff sniff!
The next weekend was the weekend of Bin's house. He lived in the outer banks, so Nate, Ashley, Erica, and I drove to his house (4 hours!!) to stay there for a weekend. Crystal's brother Will was there too, and he prevented me from drowning on my way to and from a sand bar!
Wow, it took me forever to update! I was working on this for quite awhile but wasn't able to finish it til after school ended!
May 28th was the celebration of my sister's wedding. It was a very special day where my best friend since sixth grade and a close friend of mine are joined together in marital union, and I could not be happier for them! I was honored that Megan wanted me to be a part of such a big day for her as a bridesmaid, and I wish her nothing but the best for her and Traccie's future!
My family left Friday on May 27th for Myrtle Beach to get a head start, also so they can also have a little break from the boring house life. Who knew that it was also Biker weekend, so we didn't get any peace at all!??
But Saturday was the big day! I almost had a scare because Nicole was almost late, and she sent me a text to fill in her place as maid of honor, which scared the shiz out of me!! I ran in the chapel panicking, but thank goodness Nicole made it! Jess, the other bridesmaid, was a little late, but it didn't matter because in the pictures we were all perfectly lined up!
After the wedding, Jess, Mitch, Kaleb, and I went to the beach for a little bit because we had some time to kill. We then went to an Italian restaurant for the reception. Yay for yummy free food! Traccie also got Megan to dance! She never danced much, so it was nice seeing her relax and enjoy herself!
I never knew the day would come! My sister all grown up and married! I used to think we would be young forever! But one of us is all grown up now! Sniff sniff!
The next weekend was the weekend of Bin's house. He lived in the outer banks, so Nate, Ashley, Erica, and I drove to his house (4 hours!!) to stay there for a weekend. Crystal's brother Will was there too, and he prevented me from drowning on my way to and from a sand bar!
Wow, it took me forever to update! I was working on this for quite awhile but wasn't able to finish it til after school ended!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Virginia and Washington D.C
This past weekend I went to Virginia with Traver to visit his family and tour Washington D.C! His family was very hospitable, and the guestroom I stayed in was very lovely!
Traver and I went up Thursday night, woke up Friday morning, and went to D.C to tour the city. We took the subway to different places, from the lame Chinatown (it really was that lame as Adrienne told me haha), to the historical buildings and monuments, to Koreatown (both our favorites!)
For lunch, we went to a small Indian restaurant that has a buffet. The food was authentic and spicy! I tried to finish two plates, but it was too much for me! Same with Traver too! We walked outside to a bench and rested for 30 minutes because we were too full to walk x_x. I even felt heartburn from it!
The Korean restaurant we stopped at for dinner was called Honey Pig (weird name, I know) had really good food! It was also pretty decently priced too! MUCH better than Seoul Garden! We weren't even finished with our food and our stomachs hurt from being so full!
Here's some sappy stuff, so if anyone wants to skip reading this, I understand! :P
From my weekend with Traver, I realized something that I never did before: Finding the right person isn't about finding others' definition of perfection; it's about finding the perfect person for you. And when you find that person and get to know that person inside and out, you can see how well you both match.
Traver's like a puzzle piece that's been made just for me; he matches me perfectly. He may not be everyone's ideal perfect guy; his temper can rival that of my dad's, he's late to dates, and he's pissed me off to no end on more than one occasion. But one thing he's been able to do that no one else has been able to do for me was to keep me happy and on my toes! I have honestly never felt joy like this before in my life. He's only himself around me, and he accepts me for myself. More than once, he has asked if his less attractive traits have led me to love him less, and my reply was "I love everything about you, even your faults."
OOH Update on how my grades are!
I suck at physics, and I suck at chemistry, but from my last grade in my chemistry lab, I can write pretty beast lab reports! Heckz yeah, a 91! heehee ^_^
Traver and I went up Thursday night, woke up Friday morning, and went to D.C to tour the city. We took the subway to different places, from the lame Chinatown (it really was that lame as Adrienne told me haha), to the historical buildings and monuments, to Koreatown (both our favorites!)
For lunch, we went to a small Indian restaurant that has a buffet. The food was authentic and spicy! I tried to finish two plates, but it was too much for me! Same with Traver too! We walked outside to a bench and rested for 30 minutes because we were too full to walk x_x. I even felt heartburn from it!
The Korean restaurant we stopped at for dinner was called Honey Pig (weird name, I know) had really good food! It was also pretty decently priced too! MUCH better than Seoul Garden! We weren't even finished with our food and our stomachs hurt from being so full!
Here's some sappy stuff, so if anyone wants to skip reading this, I understand! :P
From my weekend with Traver, I realized something that I never did before: Finding the right person isn't about finding others' definition of perfection; it's about finding the perfect person for you. And when you find that person and get to know that person inside and out, you can see how well you both match.
Traver's like a puzzle piece that's been made just for me; he matches me perfectly. He may not be everyone's ideal perfect guy; his temper can rival that of my dad's, he's late to dates, and he's pissed me off to no end on more than one occasion. But one thing he's been able to do that no one else has been able to do for me was to keep me happy and on my toes! I have honestly never felt joy like this before in my life. He's only himself around me, and he accepts me for myself. More than once, he has asked if his less attractive traits have led me to love him less, and my reply was "I love everything about you, even your faults."
OOH Update on how my grades are!
I suck at physics, and I suck at chemistry, but from my last grade in my chemistry lab, I can write pretty beast lab reports! Heckz yeah, a 91! heehee ^_^
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Shopping
My favorite pasttime is shopping. It's not a healthy pasttime, aside from the mass amount of walking. It does improve my mood in many ways though!
Today I went to my apartment to start packing my things up to get ready to move back into my parents' house. I'll miss having my own place, since I had more freedom, but nothing beats free food!
After packing for about an hour, Traver came to pick me up to go to the mall. It was unbelievably quiet, and there weren't a lot of people. Must have been because it was a Tuesday and everyone was either still at work or in school.
I bought William a Kirby shirt from Hot Topic for his birthday, and bought myself a tote bag from American Eagle Outfitters and some good smelling stuff from Bath and Body Works. I felt bad finding out that Traver was tired sleepy, so I made him sit while I walked around each store. Sadly he had to go back to work at 6. My poor Travy :( I hope he gets a lot of rest tonight!
Shopping really did improve my mood. I was getting irritated because I beat Final Fantasy 9, and I watched all the t.v shows I could, and am practically done with all my summer work for school, so I was at home doing nothing. I'm not used to doing nothing... At college I would always be either hanging out with friends or doing schoolwork. Walking around was definitely a breath of fresh air for me.
I wish William were still here so we can go bargain hunting. He went to TJ Maxx last week while I was still at school, and now he's off on a school trip.
Well, pretty soon, I'll have stuff to do too! I'll be going to D.C with Traver and Adrienne, then to Bin's house to the Outer Banks with Nate and Ashley! I can't wait!
[edit]
Oh man, I realized how long it's been since I've updated this thing! I must update it with some...CUTENESS OVERLOAD! Hahaha nah, it's more of just a photoshoot I did with Traver for Si to help him with expanding his photography skills. It actually turned out okay, except for a few where I looked fat. I'll post a few pics on here:
Si did a pretty awesome job at taking pictures!! This can be his advertisement, heehee ^_^
Today I went to my apartment to start packing my things up to get ready to move back into my parents' house. I'll miss having my own place, since I had more freedom, but nothing beats free food!
After packing for about an hour, Traver came to pick me up to go to the mall. It was unbelievably quiet, and there weren't a lot of people. Must have been because it was a Tuesday and everyone was either still at work or in school.
I bought William a Kirby shirt from Hot Topic for his birthday, and bought myself a tote bag from American Eagle Outfitters and some good smelling stuff from Bath and Body Works. I felt bad finding out that Traver was tired sleepy, so I made him sit while I walked around each store. Sadly he had to go back to work at 6. My poor Travy :( I hope he gets a lot of rest tonight!
Shopping really did improve my mood. I was getting irritated because I beat Final Fantasy 9, and I watched all the t.v shows I could, and am practically done with all my summer work for school, so I was at home doing nothing. I'm not used to doing nothing... At college I would always be either hanging out with friends or doing schoolwork. Walking around was definitely a breath of fresh air for me.
I wish William were still here so we can go bargain hunting. He went to TJ Maxx last week while I was still at school, and now he's off on a school trip.
Well, pretty soon, I'll have stuff to do too! I'll be going to D.C with Traver and Adrienne, then to Bin's house to the Outer Banks with Nate and Ashley! I can't wait!
[edit]
Oh man, I realized how long it's been since I've updated this thing! I must update it with some...CUTENESS OVERLOAD! Hahaha nah, it's more of just a photoshoot I did with Traver for Si to help him with expanding his photography skills. It actually turned out okay, except for a few where I looked fat. I'll post a few pics on here:
Si did a pretty awesome job at taking pictures!! This can be his advertisement, heehee ^_^
Friday, April 1, 2011
From Last Friday til Now... because I procrastinated
Grr I'm so angry with myself... I was planning on using this time before my 9 AM class to type up the notes for my marketing project... but my notebook is NOT in my bookbag!
Oh nevermind I found it... hahaha. Well since it's I'm already typing, might as well finish! I shall edit later!
So Friday night I went out to the KSA mixer with Adrienne because I promised her I would, even though I was a little skeptic about going. We met up with Nate, Bin, Lee, and Si, and that was pretty much who we were with the whole night. Adrienne ordered a rum and coke for me and I paid for both our drinks because I didn't have cash, and she paid for me to get in. I'm not a heavy drinker at all, so that small little drink actually made my face turn pink and stagger around for about an hour until the alcohol wore off. I did NOT embarrass myself though! That I'm proud of!
The night was overall pretty fun, but sooo overwhelming because of this tight circle I was in the whole night. Whenever I wanted to move out of the circle of Nate, Bin, and Lee to rest or get some fresh air, I would immediately get pulled back in.
I went home and slept for a few hours, then woke up to go to Habitat for Humanity to support Casey in ASA. It was actually REALLY FUN! I loved loved loved working for them! Pulling all the nails out of each wooden board reminded me so much of face extraction that I found it very satisfying, haha! (I used to want to be a dermatologist!) Maybe I should go to more! ^_^
On to this past Wednesday: My group and I started our bleaching lab in PSE. Everything was going smoothly until I spilled a bit of the chemicals outside of the bag of pulp that I was pouring into! Ahh, I felt so bad! They had to recalculate all the numbers we already did so that we can pour in whatever I spilled on the floor! I still felt so embarrassed! Later on, Thursday at Morgan's Birthday Dinner, Chris was talking about how much he hates his partner from a previous class because that guy broke the project. I immediately related it to myself and how clumsy I was and how I messed up and let three people down!
Well earlier Thursday, I spent 4 hours searching up on chemistry problems online in order to do well on my quiz, which had only one question. I was determined to get it right because I've been doing SO HORRIBLE in my chemistry class! I don't understand how I can not be good at it when I actually enjoy it! But anyway, I studied my butt off on that ONE SMALL QUESTION and I GOT A 100%! My very first one in that class!!!!!
Afterwards, I got really hungry while waiting on my Physics tutor, so I bought a meal and was eating til he came. I gave him half of my meal because I felt it would not be wise to eat so much before I meet up with Sandra for dinner. After dinner with Sandra, I made my way to Morgan's birthday dinner. THAT'S THREE DINNERS IN ONE NIGHT! I've only ever done this once before in the wintertime during hibernation season! hahaha.
Hm. Well today's Friday. I hope to get at least some work done, and I hope to not let my lab partners down today!
Oh nevermind I found it... hahaha. Well since it's I'm already typing, might as well finish! I shall edit later!
So Friday night I went out to the KSA mixer with Adrienne because I promised her I would, even though I was a little skeptic about going. We met up with Nate, Bin, Lee, and Si, and that was pretty much who we were with the whole night. Adrienne ordered a rum and coke for me and I paid for both our drinks because I didn't have cash, and she paid for me to get in. I'm not a heavy drinker at all, so that small little drink actually made my face turn pink and stagger around for about an hour until the alcohol wore off. I did NOT embarrass myself though! That I'm proud of!
The night was overall pretty fun, but sooo overwhelming because of this tight circle I was in the whole night. Whenever I wanted to move out of the circle of Nate, Bin, and Lee to rest or get some fresh air, I would immediately get pulled back in.
I went home and slept for a few hours, then woke up to go to Habitat for Humanity to support Casey in ASA. It was actually REALLY FUN! I loved loved loved working for them! Pulling all the nails out of each wooden board reminded me so much of face extraction that I found it very satisfying, haha! (I used to want to be a dermatologist!) Maybe I should go to more! ^_^
On to this past Wednesday: My group and I started our bleaching lab in PSE. Everything was going smoothly until I spilled a bit of the chemicals outside of the bag of pulp that I was pouring into! Ahh, I felt so bad! They had to recalculate all the numbers we already did so that we can pour in whatever I spilled on the floor! I still felt so embarrassed! Later on, Thursday at Morgan's Birthday Dinner, Chris was talking about how much he hates his partner from a previous class because that guy broke the project. I immediately related it to myself and how clumsy I was and how I messed up and let three people down!
Well earlier Thursday, I spent 4 hours searching up on chemistry problems online in order to do well on my quiz, which had only one question. I was determined to get it right because I've been doing SO HORRIBLE in my chemistry class! I don't understand how I can not be good at it when I actually enjoy it! But anyway, I studied my butt off on that ONE SMALL QUESTION and I GOT A 100%! My very first one in that class!!!!!
Afterwards, I got really hungry while waiting on my Physics tutor, so I bought a meal and was eating til he came. I gave him half of my meal because I felt it would not be wise to eat so much before I meet up with Sandra for dinner. After dinner with Sandra, I made my way to Morgan's birthday dinner. THAT'S THREE DINNERS IN ONE NIGHT! I've only ever done this once before in the wintertime during hibernation season! hahaha.
Hm. Well today's Friday. I hope to get at least some work done, and I hope to not let my lab partners down today!
Friday, March 25, 2011
It's been awhile...
I haven't blogged in so long!
I've been so busy with work that it's hard to unwind and relax lately. Now is pretty much my only free time until later tonight. Writing has always been really relaxing for me. I'm glad to finally be able to find time to record my thoughts.
Hm... what's new...
I've started going to bible study. My hard work has finally paid off where I actually passed my chemistry test. My health has been getting better as the weather gets warmer. I can tell by my appetite ^_^
This weekend, it's more of extra stuff that's been filling up my time... Like tonight, it's going to dinner with Traver, then seeing Adrienne, then going with them to support THE KSA Tsunami Relief Mixer... now I'm not much of a clubbing person, simply because nowadays I feel like I can't really have fun at these places anymore due to my position as Cultural Chair; I can't really go wild or anything because that's just going to give me and my club a bad name. Not that I used to do that or anything. I just feel more restricted because I need to remind myself to be careful not to embarrass myself or anyone I'm associated with.
Later on in the week, I'm going to Habitat for Humanity for the first time, and then it's time to study for my ultra hard physics test... I haven't done that well in physics at all... it's simply dreadful. Physics is just not my thing. People can say it's just math, but it really doesn't feel that way to me. I'm great at math. I'm not great at physics. Saying those are the same is just like telling a hockey player that he should be great at figure skating too.
I've gotten myself a tutor, but it just doesn't feel like my grades are going anywhere, which is really embarrassing.
This semester has been a lot more of avoiding the public scene for me, not really intentionally though. I do miss seeing people and hanging out and socializing, but I love being able to just relax and do nothing on a weekend rather than making time to see all the friends that I have not seen for a few weeks.
Ahh, I love places that are not crowded. Believe it or not, I'm at the library right now. On a Friday. After my classes ended. No, it's not because I have no life. It was because I was hungry and needed something to eat so I came to the library to get a coffee and cookie while I wait for Traver to take me to dinner after he's done with work. But I have to admit, being in a library on a Friday, where it's much less crowded and much quieter, feels really relaxing. I feel so calm now, even though I know tonight will be full of everything.
What does everything mean for me? I don't know... perhaps eating too much at dinner will make me feel like throwing up. Perhaps there will be drama tonight when I go to KSA. But whatever. I need a NAP!!! I'm tired...
I've been so busy with work that it's hard to unwind and relax lately. Now is pretty much my only free time until later tonight. Writing has always been really relaxing for me. I'm glad to finally be able to find time to record my thoughts.
Hm... what's new...
I've started going to bible study. My hard work has finally paid off where I actually passed my chemistry test. My health has been getting better as the weather gets warmer. I can tell by my appetite ^_^
This weekend, it's more of extra stuff that's been filling up my time... Like tonight, it's going to dinner with Traver, then seeing Adrienne, then going with them to support THE KSA Tsunami Relief Mixer... now I'm not much of a clubbing person, simply because nowadays I feel like I can't really have fun at these places anymore due to my position as Cultural Chair; I can't really go wild or anything because that's just going to give me and my club a bad name. Not that I used to do that or anything. I just feel more restricted because I need to remind myself to be careful not to embarrass myself or anyone I'm associated with.
Later on in the week, I'm going to Habitat for Humanity for the first time, and then it's time to study for my ultra hard physics test... I haven't done that well in physics at all... it's simply dreadful. Physics is just not my thing. People can say it's just math, but it really doesn't feel that way to me. I'm great at math. I'm not great at physics. Saying those are the same is just like telling a hockey player that he should be great at figure skating too.
I've gotten myself a tutor, but it just doesn't feel like my grades are going anywhere, which is really embarrassing.
This semester has been a lot more of avoiding the public scene for me, not really intentionally though. I do miss seeing people and hanging out and socializing, but I love being able to just relax and do nothing on a weekend rather than making time to see all the friends that I have not seen for a few weeks.
Ahh, I love places that are not crowded. Believe it or not, I'm at the library right now. On a Friday. After my classes ended. No, it's not because I have no life. It was because I was hungry and needed something to eat so I came to the library to get a coffee and cookie while I wait for Traver to take me to dinner after he's done with work. But I have to admit, being in a library on a Friday, where it's much less crowded and much quieter, feels really relaxing. I feel so calm now, even though I know tonight will be full of everything.
What does everything mean for me? I don't know... perhaps eating too much at dinner will make me feel like throwing up. Perhaps there will be drama tonight when I go to KSA. But whatever. I need a NAP!!! I'm tired...
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Chinese BBQ pork fried rice
Henry and and his parents left this morning! :(
They came down this weekend to visit our family for Chinese New Year. William and I had a great time bonding with our little cousin, but all good things must end. I'll miss Henry's jumping around and dancing in my living room and his little smart remarks that I doubt he even knows the meanings of :P
My parents went to take them to IHOP and then take them to the airport while I stayed home to study.
I ended up getting the munchies (no, not that kind -__-) and decided to make some fried rice out of some leftover rice, Chinese BBQ pork, an egg, and some soy sauce. It actually tasted pretty awesome!
Sometimes I feel that leftovers make a better meal than a freshly cooked one. But that's just me ;P
I'm thinking about starting a beauty blog, since I have such an interest in skincare and cosmetics... but I don't know... what if it consumes my life to where I decide not to put my schoolwork first? I get distracted SO easily! Hm...
They came down this weekend to visit our family for Chinese New Year. William and I had a great time bonding with our little cousin, but all good things must end. I'll miss Henry's jumping around and dancing in my living room and his little smart remarks that I doubt he even knows the meanings of :P
My parents went to take them to IHOP and then take them to the airport while I stayed home to study.
I ended up getting the munchies (no, not that kind -__-) and decided to make some fried rice out of some leftover rice, Chinese BBQ pork, an egg, and some soy sauce. It actually tasted pretty awesome!
Sometimes I feel that leftovers make a better meal than a freshly cooked one. But that's just me ;P
I'm thinking about starting a beauty blog, since I have such an interest in skincare and cosmetics... but I don't know... what if it consumes my life to where I decide not to put my schoolwork first? I get distracted SO easily! Hm...
Monday, January 31, 2011
Feeling lost
After what happened this morning I'm not sure how I'm supposed to act. In this situation, I have to be patient, I have to keep from blaming myself and whoever's involved, and I have to control my feelings- or rather, I have to understand it.
It's hard to accept everything when it was said in this situation.
"Did they actually mean it?" "Was it just an in-the-moment kind of thing?"
I realized that me being sad and getting emotional the afternoon before was somewhat of a foreshadowing of what was to come. I just never realized it.
What's happened has happened. I have taken drastic measures to control what happens to me and the people I'm closest to, and all I can do is wait, and learn to understand what all is going on around me.
It's hard to accept everything when it was said in this situation.
"Did they actually mean it?" "Was it just an in-the-moment kind of thing?"
I realized that me being sad and getting emotional the afternoon before was somewhat of a foreshadowing of what was to come. I just never realized it.
What's happened has happened. I have taken drastic measures to control what happens to me and the people I'm closest to, and all I can do is wait, and learn to understand what all is going on around me.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
TACAS Chinese New Year Festival
Yesterday, Adrienne, William, and I went to the TACAS festival to volunteer. It was a pretty fun experience, despite this one angry lady that yells at people from time to time. We first volunteered at an activity station where children race to put candy in their bowls using chopsticks. The children were so adorable! I really enjoyed it ^_^
We then volunteered at an origami station, where we showed children the easiest way to make a rabbit. William decided to make penguins and it took him an hour just to make 3 -__-
Overall, it was a fun experience, and I was glad to have helped out ^_^
We then volunteered at an origami station, where we showed children the easiest way to make a rabbit. William decided to make penguins and it took him an hour just to make 3 -__-
Overall, it was a fun experience, and I was glad to have helped out ^_^
Sunday, January 23, 2011
My Weekend
I drove Adrienne up with me to UNC so we can watch JIA with Jenny yesterday! We first ate at my brother's dining hall, then headed over to the stadium to watch the performance. The show was amazing! I really enjoyed it! The MCs were hilarious, and the show itself had so much talent!
I then drove Jenny back with me so we can have a girls night with Tia and Jourdan. Jourdan's roommate moved out, so Jenny and I stayed at her dorm. I passed out earlier than everyone because I was so used to sleeping at around 12. By 4AM I was passed out x_x.
Once we all woke up, I got a call from Traver saying he wants to stop by to come meet my friends. He wasn't able to park in that area in the front where Jourdan lives, so he drove away because he had to get to his job. He came back after it ended, so I went out there to meet him to find that both my car and Tia's car was towed. We were freaking out!! This never happened to us before!
But turns out it was moved right behind the student health center, so we calmed down and decided to go have lunch at the Flying Biscuit. The place was decorated in a really cute way, but unfortunately, I must say that I did not have the best time there because everything took so long, and Traver had to go back to work.
I then get a text from Janet that 2 State kids were stranded at UNC and needed a ride back to State. I was going to drive Jenny back anyway, so I was fine with it.
Sophia asks me if I wanted to stay a little bit to have ice cream and chat before she leaves for Europe, so I decided to make time because I won't be seeing Sophia for a long time :(
I ended taking three State kids back (one being Lydia's boyfriend), and by the time I got back home, it was 8:30! Ahh I need to study for my test tomorrow!!!
x_x
I then drove Jenny back with me so we can have a girls night with Tia and Jourdan. Jourdan's roommate moved out, so Jenny and I stayed at her dorm. I passed out earlier than everyone because I was so used to sleeping at around 12. By 4AM I was passed out x_x.
Once we all woke up, I got a call from Traver saying he wants to stop by to come meet my friends. He wasn't able to park in that area in the front where Jourdan lives, so he drove away because he had to get to his job. He came back after it ended, so I went out there to meet him to find that both my car and Tia's car was towed. We were freaking out!! This never happened to us before!
But turns out it was moved right behind the student health center, so we calmed down and decided to go have lunch at the Flying Biscuit. The place was decorated in a really cute way, but unfortunately, I must say that I did not have the best time there because everything took so long, and Traver had to go back to work.
I then get a text from Janet that 2 State kids were stranded at UNC and needed a ride back to State. I was going to drive Jenny back anyway, so I was fine with it.
Sophia asks me if I wanted to stay a little bit to have ice cream and chat before she leaves for Europe, so I decided to make time because I won't be seeing Sophia for a long time :(
I ended taking three State kids back (one being Lydia's boyfriend), and by the time I got back home, it was 8:30! Ahh I need to study for my test tomorrow!!!
x_x
Friday, January 14, 2011
Senses
It's amazing where the senses can take you.
It can either be something sweet from childhood, something memorable due to all the emotions you felt at that time, or something dark and intolerable from a growing up experience that you just want to forget.
Just a few minutes ago, I took a sip out of a cup of milk. The cool, creamy, calming taste vaguely brought me back to my days in Brooklyn, New York, where I can see and hear my grandma asking me if I want a cup of milk. Without my answer, she would pour a small amount for me in a styrofoam cup, using a pen to mark "J" to distinguish my little cup from my brother's and cousins'.
There are several other ones I can think of...
Taking a sip of apple juice can take me as far as my days as a baby, while the smell of coconut lime takes me to my cousin Kenny's house, where they have the exact same smell for their room sprays.
When I put several of my closest friends' names and the word "trip" together, I surprisingly had a flashback of the time I was at the Key Club district convention, where an ex boyfriend would upset me to no end, stating that I "left him" when I was heading to my leadership workshop, and angered me to no end when he stated that he only came to spend time with me, when he knew damn well that I went there for leadership purposes, had many events to attend to, and had things to plan.
When my boyfriend wore an Affliction shirt, my sight caught onto the word and hatred would boil up in my mind at the thought of a benighted and selfish human being who once tried to get me to believe his vilifications, hoping those dark secrets would never resurface to embarrase and haunt him. Little did he know how much power one can hold with allies that made him the laughingstock of Fayetteville.
Whenever I drive by a Harris Teeter, I would remember the days when I would drive by it to and from work, staring at it longingly, emotional and eyes watery, trying to run away from all that I lost by blasting my Twilight soundtrack and throwing myself at the one person who was willing to catch my fall. I remember asking myself when this pain was ever going to end...
Senses are amazing. They take you back to so many places without your physical being ever leaving. While I like to think that I have changed since these events, I'm still the same person I was in every single memory... Perhaps physically different, maybe with different pieces of knowledge, but I was still me then, and I am me now.
It can either be something sweet from childhood, something memorable due to all the emotions you felt at that time, or something dark and intolerable from a growing up experience that you just want to forget.
Just a few minutes ago, I took a sip out of a cup of milk. The cool, creamy, calming taste vaguely brought me back to my days in Brooklyn, New York, where I can see and hear my grandma asking me if I want a cup of milk. Without my answer, she would pour a small amount for me in a styrofoam cup, using a pen to mark "J" to distinguish my little cup from my brother's and cousins'.
There are several other ones I can think of...
Taking a sip of apple juice can take me as far as my days as a baby, while the smell of coconut lime takes me to my cousin Kenny's house, where they have the exact same smell for their room sprays.
When I put several of my closest friends' names and the word "trip" together, I surprisingly had a flashback of the time I was at the Key Club district convention, where an ex boyfriend would upset me to no end, stating that I "left him" when I was heading to my leadership workshop, and angered me to no end when he stated that he only came to spend time with me, when he knew damn well that I went there for leadership purposes, had many events to attend to, and had things to plan.
When my boyfriend wore an Affliction shirt, my sight caught onto the word and hatred would boil up in my mind at the thought of a benighted and selfish human being who once tried to get me to believe his vilifications, hoping those dark secrets would never resurface to embarrase and haunt him. Little did he know how much power one can hold with allies that made him the laughingstock of Fayetteville.
Whenever I drive by a Harris Teeter, I would remember the days when I would drive by it to and from work, staring at it longingly, emotional and eyes watery, trying to run away from all that I lost by blasting my Twilight soundtrack and throwing myself at the one person who was willing to catch my fall. I remember asking myself when this pain was ever going to end...
Senses are amazing. They take you back to so many places without your physical being ever leaving. While I like to think that I have changed since these events, I'm still the same person I was in every single memory... Perhaps physically different, maybe with different pieces of knowledge, but I was still me then, and I am me now.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Kelly and Ryan's Wedding
Today was Kelly and Ryan's wedding. I was Traver's date, but because he was a Groom's man, I decided to leave with Morgan and George instead at a later time. The wedding was lovely and hilarious. I couldn't help but stifle a laugh at Traver as he walked down the aisle with a bridesmaid. It must have been the fact that he was always playing around that when he tries to look professional, it's just a bit unbelievable XD
Dinner came next. The courses included salad, chicken and stuffing with spinach on top, and a piece of cake called Southern Aristrocrat Sweet Potato. Lovely name, isn't it?
Dancing came afterwards! The father/daughter and mother/son dance nearly made me cry!
I was also able to convince Traver to propose a toast to the bride and groom, go mee ^_^
When it came time for the bouquet, I was too shy to go up, but everybody made me go up with the other girls, and even made me stand in the front because I was shy x_x
Traver and Edwin left the room to go watch FOOTBALL, so Morgan and I decided to be each other's partners for the last dance, hahaha.
Afterwards, everyone went to McDonald's to get food while Traver and I went back to his apartment to make noodles. They sucked. I wanted to steal one of Edwin and Morgan's chicken nuggets... so did George... but ahh I decided not to.
Dinner came next. The courses included salad, chicken and stuffing with spinach on top, and a piece of cake called Southern Aristrocrat Sweet Potato. Lovely name, isn't it?
Dancing came afterwards! The father/daughter and mother/son dance nearly made me cry!
I was also able to convince Traver to propose a toast to the bride and groom, go mee ^_^
When it came time for the bouquet, I was too shy to go up, but everybody made me go up with the other girls, and even made me stand in the front because I was shy x_x
Traver and Edwin left the room to go watch FOOTBALL, so Morgan and I decided to be each other's partners for the last dance, hahaha.
Afterwards, everyone went to McDonald's to get food while Traver and I went back to his apartment to make noodles. They sucked. I wanted to steal one of Edwin and Morgan's chicken nuggets... so did George... but ahh I decided not to.
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