Hi, It's been awhile :)

What's the best way to procrastinate? BLOGGING! I went to Edwin and Morgan's wedding today with Traver! It was lovely, and I know Traver had a great time being with his best friends before he goes off to California. Amber told me how heartbroken he was at the thought that we might break up once he goes to California. I was shocked upon hearing that... I know I should have expected it, seeing as how he loves me a lot and shows it whenever he can. I know my family and friends keep telling me to never settle, but the longer I'm with him, the less it seems like settling. I've been to two of his best friends' weddings already, and all his friends keep talking about getting married. However, we're both still young and we don't want to talk about marriage. I'm still just a kid, believe it or not. A pretty mature kid compared to some of these idiotic college students I come across, haha. But still, overall with not enough life experience to even make a living for myself yet. Whatever happens to us in the future is not for me to know yet. I know I probably don't feel anything right now, but I have a feeling I will be really lost once he leaves for Cali. We will see where this takes us. Another thing that's been on my mind... I haven't really been my same self lately. I've stopped caring for a lot of things that aren't important to me at the moment, so pretty much if it's not school, boyfriend, and family, then I really don't give a fuck. I don't like keeping stupid people in my life... I show that I don't want them around. I get angry at my friends that ask me stupid questions rather than being patient like always. I've just been kinda mean lately :( I wonder what's going on and if this is for the better :/ Well, time to get back to study! <3 Jenn