Death and Thoughts

Feleray, brother of my best friend, Jeremy, passed away this morning due to a motorcycle accident. I called Jeremy at around 8:30PM to find out what happened, but he was in so much pain emotionally that he was crying as he spoke, and I barely understood what he said to me. All I know is that my best friend is hurting right now, and I can only imagine what the rest of his family and friends are going through. But what can I say to help Jeremy feel better? Nothing. There's nothing I can say to calm him or make him feel less pained because it's just not possible that anyone could accept with what happened today. All I can do is listen to him cry and talk about how hard it is for him to realize that Feleray is really gone. I feel like a useless friend. I asked him to be strong for his family so they can have someone to depend on... But who can be strong for him? This event happened so suddenly. Without any warning, a person whom I've known since I was 12 suddenly leaves this Earth. How are his friends and family supposed to accept this? How can anyone just say "this is a part of life" and expect that to be enough to help them get over this? Yes, it is a part of life. Accidents happen. Loved ones die. With all the wishes in the world, there's no way to bring him back. The only way he can continue living is in the minds of those who remember him. We are all young. We all live life on the edge. But what we don't realize is how many people we involve once they let us into their hearts. Every person you meet and talk to have a chance of accepting you into their hearts, to where even someone you say hi to daily and nothing else to could be shocked and feel pain to some degree at the loss of your existence. Rest in peace, Feleray.

DBHS Homecoming

William and I headed out to Fayetteville for homecoming today! I got to see my bestest friend in the whole world, and caught up with a lot of people! Saw Mindy again, that's always fun. Wow, her sister really changed since I last saw her!
Tommy and I got to talk for awhile, and he told me a lot of things that has happened that I would never have thought would happen. I must admit, it did lead me to have a little less respect for some people, and I was also shocked by other things he told me about. William and I were only gone for what seemed like such a short period of time... so many things have changed! Raleigh was definitely the happy place that seemed like everything is going right.
I'm really glad to have been able to see Tommy. It seems like this time I got to see a side of him that I never got to see while we were in school. He just seems more relaxed and at ease, not really worrying about what others think of him.
Jeremy, as always, was level-headed and kept me from going crazy at the game, which I am quite thankful for. He's my best friend for life for a reason. Nothing can ever change that. If it weren't for him, I would have behaved like I was on drugs or something, ahh.
I was also glad to see Cody, Kenya, and everyone else. It was an awesome reunion, and I really hope to see them all again soon!