Friday, December 31, 2010

Time with Traver!

Lately, I've developed this odd habit that's similar to hibernating... I would sleep most hours of the day, no matter how much sleep I've gotten the previous day. It's rather odd, but I believe it has to do with me being so utterly bored that I have unconsciously decided to sleep the boredom away. Funny, isn't it?
Last night, Traver told me he would be back for a bit to spend time with me, so guess what good ol' excited me did? Sleep the hours away to make time pass faster so I can see my muffin, of course!
I went to his apartment at around 3:25. We watched My Neighbor Totoro, and exchanged gifts. I got him a grey sweater with grey gloves to match. I was knitting a scarf for him too, but I thought it looked funny, so I was too embarrased to give it to him x_x.

My hunny got me a gift card to Bath and Body Works and a Domo notebook! Ahh cuteness overload! :D


Traver and his friends have gone to Jacksonville to celebrate New Year's. I'm staying with my mommy for my New Year celebration! I'll be missing my hunny, but I'm happy to be spending time with my mommy before the busy semester is to come!

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

AHH MY DRESS FITS!

This past summer I went to china and bought this cute little black dress, but because not many places that I went to offered dressing rooms, I just had to take my chance on what I buy.

I was very disappointed when I was TOO FAT to fit in that dress!

Just now, I decided to try it on to see if it would fit and GUESS WHAT!? IT DID!

This was just too surprising for me, since I thought I was packing on the pounds during winter break!

Here's a picture!! Ta-da!



Now... what to wear this to... hmm...

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Crystal

Today, I saw on my honey's facebook status the lyrics to that one Bone Thugs-n-Harmony song called Crossroads, which for some reason sounded really familiar... then I remembered why.
I posted a little sad smiley face with a tear on it as a comment to that status update, remembering the day I heard that song for the first time.
Traver calls me and asks what that song reminded me of...
I answered by telling him how I went on Joseph's myspace after Crystal's memorial, and that was the song he left on his myspace for her. It took a bit of restraining for Traver not to hear me almost cry. I then told him about the dream I had a few days ago where I saw Crystal again... I didn't go into details with him about it, but I remember Crystal was there. She had a headful of blonde hair that we all remembered. She was clearly alive. I was overwhelmed with emotion to where I started crying in that dream.

It's surprising how much it can affect a person. I bet Crystal never knew how she touched so many people's lives, how many people remember her and miss her after she left this world. I myself was surprised by how much I miss her. We weren't close like Megan and me. Sure, we were friends. We talked, shared experiences, said hi whenever we saw each other, laughed at the same things... but I was like that with many others. I didn't know I would be so affected by her death the way I am now.
It's hard for me to acknowledge the fact that she's no longer in this world. Sometimes I tell myself that maybe she's still here: she's in hiding for safety, because it's top secret government business. Haha... I watch too many movies...

Crystal was my friend. And she passed. Even now, I can't really accept that she's gone.
She can't experience what my brother and I are experiencing now... college, parties, books and magazine articles that are continuously being published for us to read, new foods to taste, new wonders in the world to see...
I sometimes wonder where she has gone after she left this world.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

A Story of Lesson Learned

This is the story of a girl who ignored all who told her to live life freely.
She neglected a person she didn't realize she loved until he eventually left her.
Upon learning her mistake, she scrambled at trying to put back the pieces she broke.
The boy was unwilling to giver her another chance, and even used mean tactics to push her away.
She cried at what she lost and the way she was lied to after she poured her heart out.
Her heart was filled with pain, hatred, confusion, and sorrow.
She wasn't herself; instead she turned into a monster who neglected all she used to care about.
She tried to see other people, so see if the love she has to offer can match what they can give in return. Throughout it all, the puzzles didn't fit. It was hard for her to move on.
During this cold and terrible time, the sun shone on her and provided her with a gift in the form of a new companion.
This companion made her laugh. He taught her new ideas of life. He showed her a new way to live. Within their first day together, she was able to heal from what she was previously dying from.
Someone was finally able to fit the missing puzzle.
From this experience she was taught how to love.
All the love that the hurtful boy refused to take didn't matter anymore.
The girl's new companion shone on her like a warm light bathing her, protecting her from all the hurtful and scary parts of the world.
All her love will be given to her companion from now on.
She is finally happy :)

Baby you're the best present I could ever ask for
<3