Random Relaxing Day

Today was pretty relaxing. It started off with my alarm waking me up at 11. I rolled around for an hour, I believe, then got up, brushed my teeth, and got straight to lunch XD. Spent my morning/noon eating leftover Miyabi's watching "Taking The Stage" (had them recorded while I was off at college). Before I knew it, it was time for me to go get a checkup with my orthodontist. Ahhh it was pouring once I got there! I ran in, and to my delight, my orthodontist told me it was my last checkup. The bad new is that I have to wear my retainers until I'm 25!!! AHH!
I went to Alex's house afterwards. He came out with an umbrella. How sweet <3. We spent our time wrestling each other and tickling each other. Haha fun time. William needed a ride home from school after his band practice, so I left to go pick him up.
At my house, after my dinner of more Miyabi's leftovers, my aloe drink, and pizza, I got ready to play my video games by showering and turning on the computer for a last minute check on facebook and all.
I decided to turn on my ipod, and listened to Forever by Drake.
It brings me back to my senior year of high school. I was confident, arrogant, and met anything that threatened my achievements with hostility. I had such a drive back then. I had hunger in my eyes even throughout my most stressful competitions and courses.
Now, the arrogance has become a type of calm humility. College really turns a person around. The people I met are so down-to-earth. They don't look at me with a transparent smile that they believed would cover their thirst to take me down. There wasn't a soul that I met with selfish thoughts of trying to upstage me, one-up me, whatever you call it. Maybe it's the people I chose to hang out with who are so calm and down-to-earth. They really changed me.
It's so different. So much of that stress melted away.
I look at my brother now. He has that same hunger and drive as I did. It's in different situations, but he's going through it all the same. He faces every challenge that gets in the way of his successes. He's so tough, threatening all that even try to talk down to him.
He does listen to me when I tell him college is different. "Haters" are rare, everyone are more mature. It's a completely different world. But would a loosening grip of that drive be a good thing for him?

Sometimes I wonder if I should have kept that drive. I may be in college, but I still have a lot of competition ahead of me. Life is one big competition, even if you don't want to believe it. There will be classmates who want a higher GPA than you. After college, there will be someone else in that chair interviewing for that same job as you.

I don't know if I can even get that drive back.