Thursday, December 8, 2011

It doesn't even feel bittersweet... It just feels... bitter.

Tomorrow marks my last day at my Co op. I remember during my first few weeks here, I wished so much to go home and see all my friends. Even a little over a month and a half ago, when people asked me would I consider moving to Ashdown, I would say that I couldn't leave my friends and wouldn't be able to do it...
But now, it's all coming to an end and... I'm not even excited to go back. I've grown to love this place. Sure, I may at times seem like the awkward shy one in the technical building. And I may sometimes get so shy that I may not want to go out when I'm invited. But the times that I did go out with all of them, I always had a great time. Just when I started to get attached to this place, it's already time to go. No wonder why people keep coming back. Working here was such an amazing experience. Everyone was just so helpful and willing to provide their knowledge. I learned so much and met so many amazing and influential people. My only hope is that one day, if I get to work with them all again... possibly... if I do get hired there... I'll be able to contribute more to the company than I have before.
There's this feeling you get when you enjoy being in the area you work in. You want to help them succeed, and to see your work make a difference to the company.
I feel like there is still so much I haven't done yet, and I have to drop everything and leave.
Why can't time stop itself for a little?